well..things have been good latly..except fri. night with rob and taryn and me..idk whats gonna happen..idk if me and rob are gonna be good friends anymore..or anything..i just dont know well besides that..i guess i felt alot better now that im not working all the time. its nice. yesterday was pretty good..today was very very hot...not according to marta lol..but it was. we watched rosemarys baby and ate taco dip..the movie was really long...it was quite the uneventful day but it was halfly nice not doing anything. actually it was really nice to me. rob got home from rolling stones..he got sum cds and dvds...makes me want to go there...nothings really new..allie and taryn r both gone at the same time..seems liek everyone is. i dont think ill be working this week surprisingly..gives me time to read my precious books. i think its time for a change with my hair. idk what to do to it though

yea..everything just sucks now..idk how much more of little europe i can take..its not fun anymore..at all..the boss's wife is horrible to me..the bus boy can go fuck himself..the boss's wife  screams at me every morning so bad....i honestly neevr thought anyone can be so mean to sumone..no ones ever yelled at me like that before..and that really is bad. she wont let anybody help me or anything..she calls me these awful names right infront of me..i hate mornings. i hate all of it. i havnt hung out with anyone in forever. we've got a month before school starts...idk where the time went..but this summer has been a big nothing pretty much. i hate it. i just wanna do stuff wth people and not feel left out of everything anymore.

thats all.

well i mideaswell just make a fucking entry cuz i have nothing better to do lol

OKAY U DO NOT WANT TO READ THIS. TRUST ME lol..its nothing new...i just got really bored

hmm....summer school is over. wooo!! thank god..ive been working at little europe a little too much..4 days this week...sum have been good...sum have sucked cuz of the bitch waitress who makes me feel stupid cuz im new...but meh i shouldnt care..tomorow im working all day..eh i wonder how thats going to go there's gonna be 4 waitresses instead of 3..so thats 2 less tables for me...wow what a difference...i just spent like an hour talking to kathy on the phone lol she told me jana is leaving for 2 weeks which means that ill prolly be working around 6 days a week...uhm yea..maybe with kathy on saturday..which would make perfect sense but the boss is a jerk so who knows. the bus boy went into kathy's phone while she was taking orders and got my number lol so he called me and i had no idea who it was...yea..he's cool lol. kathy told me he finally got the motorcycle he wanted so bad..according to her its really nice and all day he was staring and kissing  its picture on his phone..hmm..wonder what else i can ramble about...today me and marta went to yorktown....got sum really awesome underwear...mm yorktown sucks. kim's bday is wednesday..my moms thursday..and marta's on friday...goddamm bdays. ive failed to get kim a present so she will just get money..and marta sum too lol. i bought my mom her first present from me.*applaudes self*ive been sitting here for a while...nothing on tv..yeaaa taryn works everyday at the zoo...its sad. i hope i wont have to work on friday but yea i most likely will...blah whatever. for the first time i have sum goddamm money but i dont have anything that i want or even need. so i havnt really gotten anything cept a cell phone and its bothering me lol. ooohh yes my new cell phone...finally got that. i can actually talk. woo hmm idk whatelse i could type here. well the last week has been pretty uneventful cuz ive been working all of the days..cept wednesday..went to downers grove...it was pretty cool...yea. i really wish there was sumtin on tv..or that id have a life..whichever. im reaally stuffed. i cant even look at food. my tummy hurts but whatever. i really dont wanna work tomorw. im working with the mean/sumtimes nice guy..he's only mean cuz he's really good friends with the veronica bitch...her also im working with.and the boss is gonna be there..hes very mean so hes a bitch .and the old bitch. yey for bitches.  im getting really sick of feeling like im about to throw up everyday/right before little europe...i just want it to go away...i feel like it never will.. i really dont want school to start..im already having bad feelings about it..but whatever..so whoever just read all this sry for wasting the ten min. it took to read this lol. cuz this was pretty much as pointless as anything gets...meh i feel like sitting here all day. tomorow better not go horrible

i think this is the longest entry i ahev ever made..i wonder how u say fish in spanish

so today was nice i guess. sammie drove a million of us to golden wok to eat for a lil..i was gonna call u marta but we didnt have enough room in the car meh we'll go another time...so she went and picked everyone up..met us at robs...drove to eat but it was so retarded cuz they got our order thing wrong. retards.but whatever ...then drove to collins..sat in his backyard while listening to falloutboy(meh? hah)..drove to starbucks..then we drove back to sam's house...we made collin a myspace..marta add him!..and yea then we went home.

sooo yea i've been working at little europe it has been going pretty good i gues..they started paying me by the hour so ive made a ton of money so far. i only work around 3 days a week but thats okay cuz ill make around 400 dollars from that.

yea wooh im tired. summer school sucks. we do nothing but sit there. and go to the comp. lab cuz my teacher doesnt know what to do with us. complete waste of my time.

i love how i direct all of this to marta. cuz ur the only one who reads this. okay then. i think im gonna go...

 

so yea this weekend is gonna suck/all ready sucking. its so fucking hot in my house. im sick. my troat hurts alot and i have a runny nose.great.i better be better by tuesday cuz we have to run in gym and i have to go to little europe and it would just realllllly screw me up even more if im sick..im so weak and my arms/upper shoulders hurt so bad...prolly from push ups..ansd gah how am i suposed to lift anything...ugh.....i just want this whole entire week to be over...whew i need air...cold air...too hot...im like delerious...ive been sitting here all day........yea GAH so now that i just complained about eevrything that's going wrong..well like not even half the things that r going wrong..i feel a very tad bit better...well then UGH....ah i just dont want tuesday to come..

well its like past midnight and i should just go to bed like i decided couple minutes ago but im not cuz im very angry. grr. well today was a pretty okay day..me rob taryn and collin went to riverside foods like all the other days but this time we got some banana bread mix and eggs lol..and me and taryn got gummy bears and root beer as always so we went to collins and mm yummmyness....ventured into his closet...muahahahaha me and taryn conquered him!!! and what i found as they held collin back was a ladder with socks at the end behind his mysterious door..whatever collins weird but we all know that....so we called steph to come over yep and we all pretty much screamed random perverted kinda creepy shit to brittany sapiasnzas(sp?) mom next door...oh my god i almost peed in my pants oh and it rained so we all went to go play in the pouring rain for sum reason and i took pics f rob dancing in the rain. it was quite beautiful. really it was.

so tomorow we're all goin to the zoo to turn in our applications and what not. they prolly wont call me back i did really bad on ym application and who knew thats even possible so whatever i prolly wont have a job this summer but whatver i dont care anymore.

gah i am in a very bad mood so i mideaswell just go to fucking sleep but i wont.

wow these last two days have been soooo amazing... wlel yesterday was tuesday and after shool i went to my ortho around 2 30..came back to school..met up with ryan and rob and went to rob's house to watch waynes world..then me and ryan walked home and then i met up with marta britt and benji..we went to paisans and then rb and then we all walked home...then today..wednesday i think..yes..after school me ryan rob marcus and chelsea went to rob's house(taryn had softball practice gah)..so basicly of course rob ryan and marcus play guitar and me and chelsea just molested eachother..then marcus drove chelsea home while we went outside and i drew rob ryan cory and marcus with chalk all holding hands with e.t. heads...then marcus drove us to paisans..and then to ryan's house and we watched this movie about idk it had guitars in it...and this 15 year old stripper who has sex with a 17 year old who looks like he's five and she never wore any pants..so i fell asleep..and then taryn came over..i left a lil after 8...yea...soooo tired..i looked like i was drunk when i was walking home..wlel wow these last 2 days have been quite eventful and great so thsi weekend should be good too..on friday me ryan taryn and rob r gonna go to ryan's and make our fort and watch finding nemo in it..then sat. me marta brittany and maybe benji r gonna go to aj's yup.that should be tons of fun too.wow and now that i just wrote for like a million hours im gonna go...

wow im actually updating..like everyday..cuz hmm it seems like i actually have something to write about..

well today was actually really good and alot of fun...its just so weird wth me and ryan cuz i have no idea if we're going out or not...aghh it's so confusing cuz we pretty much are...but then again we're not and he can't hang out tomorow so i guess ill go to ajs..meh whatever..he said maybe later but gahh i just wish i knew what was going on lol..but whatever hopefully it'll all go right...blah

so now im sittng here cuz i cant watch tv dammit cuz its too loud grr its 11 30 and everyone's sleeping..it's weird cuz id usually be out right now ahah blah

so today was pretty crapalicious...after school there was a prob. witrh the whole adam/nicole/lauren thing....which is all a misunderstanding and i feel like it's my fault but ugh whatever laurens stupid...rob and taryn werent at school...those losers...after school i hung out wth marta and chelsea yeeep..i didnt call rob after school like i said i would..i felt terrible eh...taryn and him got caught ahh god i seirousl hope taryn is not grounded cuz that would just REALLY suck...mine ryans robs her dojo turtle fort...wouldnt happen..instead of an turtle..we would be an urtle...haha yea...so ryan's gonna ask me out this weekend....yey....finally!!! ahh haha i ant stop laughing/smiling....yeeeeeeeeeep ahhhhhhh

now marta was all like im gonna go have some cake and mmmm i really wanted sum too..so then i found out my mom put half the fucking cake in the the basement freezer!! gah well i have some now...mmmmm yuuuuuum

well..today was so blahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh sitting here doing nothing...now that chelsea convined me my works cited thing is so scrwed i have to figure what im going to do about my author problem grrrrrrrrrrr im sooooooo sick of this...idk what's happening with ryan..we're not really going out but uh...it's confusing...meh...idk what's going on but ugh whatever...

so gahhhhhh i dont wanna go to shcool tomorow soooooooooo bad....ugh back mind and body ....then i have this fucking outline...then i have a chem test and geo. test right when i get back and totally forgot everything...well its not like i knew anything to begin wtih gaaaaaaah)

meh but besides all that everything's pretty good lol